all about me!

....Aa..aaa...dun get me wrong...if you think am a narcissist...umm.....well.. yes! deep down i am..i believe everyone should be!(umm...read between the lines...n u sure to get it...right!)

And well...you asked for it!:P..and who speaks for me better than......i, me, myself all the way!and yeah now i have a partner on board...;)

A man with a balanced narcissist attitude ..is what i am.
That's the breeding ground for my self confidence...now that's a universal fact..ain't it?

Now lemme get a bit nostalgic...(the film buff that i am...this was on the cards..heh!)and run you through a couple of classic phases of my life...n classic they are...:D!!

Over the years..i saw myself being raised from ground zero...i had kinda started shaping my destiny and gathered the courage to dream..with every step forward.trust me...it wasn't giving me a feeling of a warrior then....nor now...but yes it did keep me going for more..!
every tiny battle that i won was like a preparatory course for the next that followed!hahaha...
Gosh...now i know...how i hate preparing for exams sometimes!!:P This sure got me the confidence to take on challenges and work my way through them;)

So ground zero...is the very ingredient that made me humble and kept me grounded.
every step forward has molded my character...and made me a curious cat wanting to learn and explore and soak in like a sponge..;)and since i aint any heavy-weight..i had to weigh out my options very carefully..which again..trained my brain to think from a multifaceted angle...ya ya i know thats a very paradoxical way.....but as long as you get it right..;)

oh yeah yeah...i aint a saint...rhymes well there..whew...lemme try n b a momentary poet sometime!:D...c m still a mystery to myself...exploring!

I did learn to guard my territory well...that kinda appeared rude n shrewd to the world at the first look of it...now my worse half..[:P]trust me if am bad shes worse..ha ha ha...that's how well we complement each other!well shes now learning to read between the lines!(more on this never ending saga later)!....u will know shortly why i call it so...So i have a tendency of being misquoted..at times..

Get closer,second look and you know...i aint an evil planner for people around.You free to come on board and sail happily with me....if you heading to the same coast..that is!

A lighthearted soul that i am...i find humour in the most testing times...that's my way of looking up at life and saying..hei...look here...i aint giving up!;)though being human..(aah i c salman all over!):P...i still have my share of brooding and sulking at times..no denying that!but i am quick to get out of that scene..(u can kinda sniff an aroma of the movie -feast i was treating myself with while i was growing young!;)

In my case...you will have to pay heavy mishandling charges...in case!I am good with the good and can get real bad with the bad!I am a no-strings attached kinda person...and prefer feeling like a helium balloon!and staying away from that prick of negativity around me...though can't escape it at times...

You can say am being selfish when i say i prefer sharing knowledge...than keeping it stacked on my brain shelves...as there's a high rate of returns on this kinda investment;)oh yeah..i can sure think business for good..hahahahaaaaaa..being part of a gang and hitting the bulls eye...will gimme multiples of pleasure and excitement...than being Hitler par excellence!..oops!!do i c a Nazi gang charging up to me there...Hail Hitler!:P

I am smitten by adventure...and by choice...try to ride onto it ...when m at peace or at the battle field...both on and upcoming...:D..this sounds more like a soap eh...how much i love story telling....the entertainer in me keeps screaming out loud every now and then...hahahaaaaaa:D
Trust me...(its not an obligation!)....the idiot-box has been my virtual family...n the newspaper...my scripted family!hoosh..i have a couple of loans to repay there..:Dthey kinda helped me to a great extent in multiplying my brain cells...or there was every possibility of they being..over n out...i mean brainwise...cummon.!!!!i m here to stay..the 4th idiot!;):D..i can closely identify myself with the first one though...:)

Back to my movie-making dreams....if anyones wanting a critic on board...u know where to go...i have kinda developed a fair understanding on this front....no no...dun get me wrong...i ain't dumb to call it a wrap on my learning curve!

Now the saga called......my worse-half!:P:D....oh...how i enjoy and get my share of....cheap thrills!!!...i owe all of this to her!:P but yeah the kinda joker she loves to be....her thrill factor is taken care of too!........ saga...goes like this..heres one lady..if i can say so...who at times....(these times have become rare from being frequent now!)thinks i belong to the stone age....but still manages to soak in a lot of love...i mean a lot of!...some management skills there!:P
n now she precisely knows whats on my mind!dangerous..hahahaa...m glad though!:)

But yeah....she has no qualms about being her.....unstoppable she is!she loves to love me!
Its sometimes a mystery to me...as to how deeply can one love....n that to mee!!hahahaaaaa;;
hey ..hey...i do have a romantic quotient!...n pulling her legs is a major part of that!hahhaaaaa...
Being mischievious is the way i look at being romantic...n ya ya...i too have a soft bone!
I was one soul who kinda lived in an age where pigeons used to deliver mails!!...neh nehh....i meant i never had the capacity to speak for hours to anyone existing...until i confronted this creature!:D...yeah yeah she unleashed my tongue!n now the scene looks like this...i can talk to her for hours together...some capacity building there!:D

oh...how i can vouch for her concentration powers when i am around!ask me!!.........every line thats drawn out of mouth...forms equal number of tangents to her !:D...it gets on my nerves sometimes....but there's some magic moment there!;)
I am glad to have this madness on board!...though she does display extremist tendencies...but her laughter kinda spills all over... washes it all off...till then...i try n dryclean it!:P:D....
We have our share of cat fights..n mis -with- her- understandings scenario..hahaha...oops!yeah but both of us are pretty malleable...that makes life super cool for us!and yeah then we have dialogues ...not like the ones that happened at Copenhagen!:D:P
n there are times when i bear the brunt of being expressive too!:Pi m caught there!!but yeah i do go overboard...n try and explain things from my point of view...when the bRidsview could be the right one...n vice versa.But the story line of love and respect holds ground no matter what!:):)
we still scream eeeee-----goooo to our egos as much as we can!:D...and sure know when to massage them too!:P

Silly some might call it...but this is how we chose to be..buddies in love;)
So here is me...just a trailer though!a man who loves to have an animated life..with a splash of adventure!...n sure some beer too;):D

Love you Tom! muahh..:)

This is me,sketching a silhouette of my partner- in-madness!

Upcoming...:P:P...watchout for some more madness....!:D;)

Feels like......ABANDONED...

life's just getting tougher by the second...feel abandoned right now...dunno where to look around..for that one pat on our back ...and tell us ...its gonna be okay..soon..very soon...

every time we take the courage to get up n get there...there comes a prick...from my own people..well...guess life's got so fast paced that no one has the time to give someone enough time to dust oneself up..n stand..feel so so burdened...its just bending me all the more...it scares me sometimes...dunno how much does one trust and whom...kinda drifting away..its killing me inside..hate it..cant help it..

still wanna believe and i guess i know...they dont mean bad for me...but..just wish...they could just be a bit compassionate and just be there...without passing judgments...without asking for reasons...without giving us a feeling of scavengers up above looking for a hunt...(its been that scary for me)..n simply being there..giving us the faith to believe...n believe...in our dreams ..n move on..

all we need is time...all we need is respect and love through these seemingly hazy lifelines...and just help us laugh through these rocky paths and make us believe...life's sure an adventure!feel it soak it...rather we getting a feeling of a doomsday on the cards!!

we still share a laugh...just the both of us...cos we gonna be there to help each other believe!
we sure..to build our beautiful cottage..LIFE..rising through this very rubble!
Of course my darlings who have been there around...always..just lending me smiles..through their silent gazes...they speak a million words through their gazes!
..my angels..my mom.....my love...tom...god bless them!

on my way...to stand again.................................................................!:)